I grew up in a very abusive home in Alaska where I was the household slave. I was emotionally, verbally, physically, and sexually abused by my family. My mother would regularly tell me “ You are a failure”, “You should have been aborted”, and “ You are worthless.”
At six I was held responsible for my fathers leaving, and was later sold into sex slavery by my older brother to his best friend, My crime was “He left because you couldn’t make him love this family” The crime was without clear definition but the punishment had translucent long term effects. The lessons I learned at six should have not been taught till, well never.
I have wondered what my life would have been without the PTSD, severe Anxiety borderline Agoraphobia, and Body Dysmorphic Disorder. Stemming from sexual, physical, and severe mental child abuse. I have often been asked if I could change everything magically would I?
The answer is No because I can not waste time on illusion and to be honest I finally almost completely proud of who I have become. I have a ton of work left to do, but I know for certain I would not be who I am now, without those events.