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Tamieka Smith 2017-10-10T08:20:44+00:00

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About Tamieka

Hello, I’m Tamieka a writer, self-published author, blogger, and editor that loves pushing dreamers to become doers of the world. I am a mother of two talented boys that are an absolute godsend.

My education is in Business Administration with a concentration in Human Resources. I love traveling and being a foodie. My life experiences gave me special assignments with serving a nonprofits such as 10Blessings, Inc (10blessings.org) and also H.E.A.R.T.S. of OHRCNC (Ohrcnc.org).

My blog reminds other women to shine on Gloupgirl.com. No one should ever dim their light to make others comfortable. It took quite some time for me to learn that.

Connect with me on Social Media! Instagram @TamiekaSmith, Twitter/Periscope @MsWordsmith, and on my website TamiekaSmith.com and blog Gloupgirl.com.

My Story

I met him when I was 24 from a previous broken relationship. There was a tiny voice that told me, “leave him alone”. I ignored because he said the right things, did the right things, appeared to be right…until I realized he was wrong and that “voice” was right. I wasn’t used to getting so much attention that I did from him. He wanted my time. It was awkwardly obsessive. The relationship is what I called “Fools rushing in”. He immediately wanted to move in together, share bank accounts, get a choice bank account, anything that appeared to be that we were one. However, I learned that he was a narcissist. I thought he was showing me signs that he wanted us to be together for a long time.

It was Valentine’s Day. I got off a little early that day. I decided to run to the store to get a gift since it was our first one together. I went in the house and he started yelling and asking me, “Where you been?” I didn’t get the chance to tell him. I still had the gift in my hand. I was slammed across the wall. He promised to never do that again. I still gave him the benefit of the doubt although the “love” clouded my judgment.

Nearly 5 years later, I had two sons. The cycle of abuse intensified. Then it was one night I just got tired. His jealousy was too much to deal with. He choked me because he was angry that a male was training me at my new job. He was very possessive and didn’t even want me to speak with others especially other men. My spirit dwindled over time. He didn’t like me going to church. I was still determined to go. That one night when he choked me to the point where I nearly died. My boys were innocent bystanders but witnessed some of the abuse. When my life flashed before my eyes, I thought of them. I almost was ready to give up. There was still some fight left in me.

Quick thinking changed my life. That last weekend, I did my best to try keep the peace. Then, Monday came. He had to be at work before I did. I pretended to oversleep so that could be our way of escape. I left for good. There wasn’t any looking back. Although he tried to overtake my accounts, it didn’t stopped me. He tried coming after me. I retailed with an order of protection. When I defended myself in the courtroom and he heard me speak to him directly in the eye with  authority, it perhaps sparked something in him so he would know that I no longer feared him. I finally felt victorious. It empowered me so much that I wrote a book about my experience called Shattering the Glasshouse: A Memoir.

My Healing Journey

My journey from recovery of the toxic relationship wasn’t an easy one. We were in a shelter for 10 months. The anger that I had was lashing out on others. I’m so thankful that I was strong enough to know I needed help.

I went to therapy and was faithful with my faith. Even though I had some bumps in the road, forgiveness was a big one for me. Forgiveness is not waiting for an apology. I had to also forgive myself from the guilt from dealing with an abusive relationship for so long.

Recovering from dysfunctional relationships takes time. I’m thankful for having the courage to speak up. I realized the strength of my voice.

As time went on, things got better. I found myself with others that had similar stories. There’s strength in numbers. For anyone that may be dealing with this type of relationship, know that you are valuable. You’re not alone in this battle. Something that once brought me shame gave me a grace to support others to be a guiding light in a dark place.

“You are altogether beautiful my darling; there is no flaw in you.”

To My Younger Self

To my younger self: The best love is within you. Your happiness matters. The love you have for writing is the pen that will set you free. Rejection was actually protecting you. Your gentle spirit will grace you to great places. Be confident in who God created you to be. Your voice matters. Your smile matters. It’s okay to say no. Although you may feel awkward, take a leap of faith. Let go of those doubts and second guessing. It will make sense one day. You are altogether beautiful my darling; there is no flaw in you.

 

3 Comments

  1. Donna October 11, 2017 at 6:07 am - Reply

    What a powerful testimony! God truly covers us. This is Genesis 50:20 in full manifestation! Thank God we don’t look like what we went through! May God continue to use you for His glory and may you continuously stand in His boldness to share your testimony to set others free! ❤️

  2. Adrienne October 11, 2017 at 11:03 pm - Reply

    Thank you fot sharing your story. I’m working on mine now. Wondering if I should expose him. May the truth set me free! ❤️

  3. Manifest Mee Mee October 15, 2017 at 12:13 pm - Reply

    Awesome of you to share such a personal part of you. Continue to bless others with your journey and strength that helped you get out. Wishing many blessings and much success!!

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