Embracing Fearlessness

Embracing Fearlessness

It seems almost ironic that you can be perceived as a fearless warriors but still feel fearful and scared inside.  That we are Rockstars, even though sometimes we might not always feel worthy of such a title? A title that we have earned through our fearless struggle towards hope and healing.

I struggle with this most days.  Part of me feels strong because of what I have overcome, and the other part of me sees my daily struggle and thinks “who do you think you are.”

This is why it’s our job, together, to remind each other of our own strength, resiliency, and fearlessness. This is the mission of I AM A ROCKSTAR.

Professionally, the beauty of my job as a clinician is that I am constantly inspired and surrounded by the most fearless people in the world. I meet amazingly resilient men and women who have survived trauma, abuse, life challenges… you name it, they’ve been through it, they’ve seen it all. And survived. 

I still remember a conversation that I had several years ago with a young women who was in recovery from heroin use. We were sitting in my office and I introduced the concept of fearlessness to our conversation.  To my surprise, she looked at me and said, “I don’t know anything about being fearless.  I’m not fearless at all.  I’m fearful all of the time.”

This conversation taught me that fearlessness can be loud and fierce or soft and subtle, or both at the same time. 

This girl is an amazingly strong and brave human being, a total rockstar. She has conquered and survived all sorts of childhood trauma and abuse; and and even though life can be pretty messy sometimes, she shows up and meets whatever challenges come her way.  It is incredibly inspiring.

So I looked at her, astonished, and said, “you are one of the most fearless souls that I have ever met. Fearlessness is not about the absence of fear.  It’s not about being superwoman every moment of the day or never doubting yourself.  And it’s not about doing everything perfectly all of the time. Fearlessness is about being afraid and then doing it anyways.  Finding the strength within you to show up and face the day ahead. It’s about being vulnerable and open to healing, even though it scares you.”

I have thought a lot about this conversation over the years- Why is it so hard to embrace our own bravery, courage, and fearlessness?

Perhaps it is because if we embrace our own fearlessness than we are also acknowledging the adverse experiences that have happened in our lives that have inadvertently revealed to us our own true strength.

And it can be so easy to push down those challenging life experiences, or “forget” about them, or feel so consumed by them that you cannot possibly be able to see your own strength through them.  We often need someone else to reflect back at us and point out our own strengths and resiliencies, especially when we cannot see them for ourselves.

But to even share our inner stories and adverse life experiences with another person takes a huge leap of vulnerability.  And if you have survived hardships and trauma, this may not come naturally for you.

Here’s what I think happened.  We experienced trauma when we were  younger and we survived all of these years by being strong by whatever coping tools we had at that time. We had to hold it together.  So whether that was by numbing out on drugs or by suffering in silence wondering if you are secretly crazy, we built an armor around us, to keep us safe.  And it did, it served its purpose, we survived.

The problem is that what many of us want more than anything is love and connection.  This is the challenge- that in order to create real connection with those around you is to experience real vulnerability.  And to experience real vulnerability it means admitting that we don’t always have it all together.  That sometimes we are scared.  That we are imperfect. And that sometimes we are struggling and not okay.

Which is hard to do when we have spent an entire lifetime training ourselves to NOT feel those emotions.  Or to stuff them away.  Or to hide by telling ourselves that there’s something wrong with us.  Something wrong with me. Who would want to know my secrets, anyway?

There’s a word for that, and it’s called shame.  Shame lives in the dark, it tries to hold our wisdom and inner strength hostage. The good news is, shame cannot live in the light.  And that’s where courage comes in.

Courage is the ability to transcend our fears. It takes courage to recognize that the armor we wear is outdated and no longer serves us.  It takes courage to ask for help. It takes courage to show up. And it takes courage to heal.

You, Rockstar, embody true fearlessness.  

Thank you for inspiring me today.

Lindy Ariff, LCSW is the founder of I AM A ROCKSTAR. She is a Rockstar, a psychotherapist, clinical social worker, writer, and healing professional in Portland, OR. Lindy mixes a unique palette of meditations, guided imagery, energy healing, hypnosis, counseling, and deep transformational work. She has nurtured and guided hundreds of clients in aligning mind, body, and soul. She has a blog and offers both in person and e-coaching for her clients. Connect with her on Facebook and at HealwithLindy.com.

2017-06-23T13:38:04+00:00

2 Comments

  1. Emily April 28, 2017 at 9:46 am - Reply

    I absolutely love this. Great reframing of the concept of fearlessness and a reminder of how hardship can bring out true strength. Well written!

  2. Melissa Mahon May 3, 2017 at 12:06 pm - Reply

    Such an important concept to remember! We are all struggling in our own way but fearless in our own way as well!

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